you ever go to start something, then say, “oh damn!  I forgot to do this… let me do that real quick, then I’ll start.  Oh and this, and that and this…. wait, better brush my teeth since I don’t want to offend anyone with my breath, even tho I’m the only one here, and only one going to be here for the next 5 hours…. wait, I can’t write with this music playing… better change it. better get back up and turn it down, that’s too loud.  wait, before I sit back down, better check the dogs water and make sure it’s full.  screw it! while I’m at it I might as well pick up the dog shit, or I’ll forget about that, and it’ll probably rain soon and become one big shitful mess….”

ya know wha’ I mean?  my day wasn’t quite that absurd, but I started to see it happening.  been out all day, and have been anxious for one reason or another, to come back home and ‘work’.  I have all these unfinished projects that need attending to, and I always feel like I’m not getting jack dick done.  however, it did occur to me, that I never stop and acknowledge the tasks/goals that DO get done, and in a mother f**kin timely fashion… it’s always move move move onto the next…

I have these 2 white dry-erase boards here sitting by me.  each one has about 7 ‘tasks’ to do.  After feeling like I hadn’t done much this weekend (the fukt part is, I DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING!  lol), I went to ‘re-do’ my boards, and noticed I erased everything but 2 things.  Still haven’t drilled my submissions all weekend, and still haven’t watched any tutorials on youtube on this fisting Nikon camera, but aside from that, I got a ton of shit done.  One of the tasks was to get  flyers done for this self defense course.  I’m helping my Sensei teach this weekend.  So, any of my ‘fans’ down here in Oz, want to send your wifes away for a 3 or so hours this Sunday, let me know, and I’ll get you the information.  I promise to return your ladies home safe and sound, and little bit more konfident

hehehehe…..

Almost forgot…. Got my ‘BOD POD’ test done today with Andrew from www.bodyologystudio.com.au

The good news is, I’m in the ‘ultra lean’ catagory re: my body weight.  I’ll report back with some stats a bit later.  One thing for sure, is that I’m training like a short distant Olympic sprinter.  I would rather jump off a bridge, face first, onto a freeway, rather than do 3 HOURS OF CARDIO EVERY SINGLE DAY!.  That is not cool.  I’m doing this show to see where, and how far, I can take my body.  I want to see myself all ripped up.  MY LEGS THAT IS.  Seen the top part, but now need to see the lower half, and top half.  as well as my lats.

I also have some other issues going on internally that I’d never blog about because the other party would come unglued.  then again, maybe it would help them realize some shit, if they saw their name in lights.  does that make sense?  probably not.  if it did, you’d need more help than I do, lol.  On a side note, I’ve stopped taking birth control as of 3 weeks ago.  I may have mentioned that, but can’t remember.  Been on it since I was 18 years old.  Curious to see how my body is going to react to that shit.  and now, I’m NOT TRY TO GET PREGNANT.  PASS.  I still have that fuking scorpion tattoo below my belly button, that would turn into a lobster if I did.  Don’t think I forgot

much love, and be back a bit later. lata.